Lately I have been feeling creatively stifled. I find myself to be a creative person. I like to create content. I like to read, write, make videos, study performing arts – but sometimes I don’t think I express that enough. I want to do great things creatively. Not many people even know that I grew up taking performing arts classes where I would dance, sing, and act. I loved it. I also secretly took acting classes this summer. I even used to make videos, and that really fulfilled me. People used to ask me “so why do you make those videos? Is it for school project?”
No, it’s creative expression. It’s something I love to do.
I feel like a lot of people don’t put effort in doing different, fun innovative things when putting themselves out there. There’s a lot of stuff I want to do but I don’t feel motivated and it’s frustrating. Sometimes it’s just hard to put yourself out there creatively not knowing how people are going to respond to it. I also have the issue of not being surrounded by many creative people who are doing things and so it makes me not want to venture out myself. I can’t stop these factors from limiting me. I have a lot to say and this year I think I finally want to say it. I have this blog which I enjoy but I definitely think it could be better. I want to be more real and show a side of myself that I don’t always get to do. Whether that be through making a videos or just going on Instagram live and chatting with people.
I want to inspire young women like myself to feel happy, be themselves, and live positive lives. I just feel that push more than ever. I kind of think it’s my purpose in life to sort of – to tell the world my feelings and my thoughts so that I can help them. There are a lot of struggles I went through internally and I want to shed light on other people’s lives. I want to have those deep conversations. I want to have sisterhood that uses art and creative expression to educate each other and be strong. It’s important to get more into feminism and lifting girls up instead of bringing them down. I want anyone who didn’t have confidence to feel as confident as I do now. Hopefully I can convey this message in a productive, creative way.
I want to feel more fulfilled creatively because it makes me create content that people enjoy and will ultimately help others in the long run. I want to be a #girlboss and put myself out there and not be afraid to share my thoughts no matter what people think. I just want to branch outside the norm and just do things that will actually make me happy. I want to feel powerful and strong and I want to make a difference no matter how small. I think about making videos again or creating some type of online female support group – maybe having an advice column or just doing more interesting things on my blog.
I’m not sure what I want to do but I will do it. 2017 is the year that I will build my strength and live my truth. Everyday I’m becoming more of the woman I want to be and it’s exciting. I can’t let anything hold me back anymore. I refuse to be creatively stifled anymore, I want to feel stimulated. It’s time for me to be creative again. Stay tuned for my next project.