I can honestly say I’m probably the happiest I’ve ever been in years. Over the past year and even all of college I must say I have grown into a completely different person than I used to be. I’m in a totally different mindset and it’s probably the best feeling ever. I have grown so much and I can only go up from here. I struggled a lot being angry and sad thinking that I needed a boyfriend or needed certain friends to make me happy. I needed some sort of social validation & of course it would never work out. my self-esteem crumbled from it. I always thought it was me.. I was thought something was wrong with me… I never thought I’d be cool enough, I never thought I’d be pretty enough. I never showcased my talents because I was afraid of what people would say about me. I would go out with my friends in college and come back to my dorm and cry myself to sleep. I got so down that I knew I had to change something.
So a little over year ago I made it a mission to find myself spiritually and grow. It hasn’t been an easy road, but the place I am now is so completely different than where I was and it’s so rewarding. I can honestly say I’m happy now and I’m so confident in who I am, what I look like, and what I do. People close to me can sense that there’s a change in me. I walk differently, I talk differently, the way I carry myself is different… my whole aura is different! I refocused my thoughts and I no longer carry negative burdens with me. I look in the mirror and I actually like what I see. I’ve accepted my body & the skin I’m in and I love it. I’m not afraid to be myself and talk to whoever I want to talk to & I’m not afraid to post what I want to social media and just be myself, fully myself… I love myself now. I’m not tripping over having “friends” that don’t treat me well, i’m not tripping over not getting noticed by a hot guy anymore. If people can’t realize how great I am I don’t need them in my life anyways. I now know my worth and I know how great I am, & now other people can see that. It’s a process of growth that I hope everyone goes through. Even with people around me I’ve noticed how differently I think than they do now. They have not yet discovered themselves and I hope that they do. I just feel like my self-love journey is going to open so many more doors for me and it already has.
this is a quote that changed my life:
“When you are seeking completion and sense of self-worth in the arms of another person you have disconnected from your spiritual source”
please everyone try to live by this and love yourself! your life will change tremendously like mine did. Only you can make yourself truly happy!